Thursday, 21 June 2012


It's funny how you can be so depressed one moment and then you receive some news that boosts you up to cloud nine! DISTINCTION IN MY GRADE 7 SAXOPHONE EXAM BABY!!! Sorry for the huge capitals but I am so high it's unreal. Who needs drugs when you have music? Bad quote I know but I'll work on it. Just wow, am I dreaming right now? This mustn't be real, it's just a fantasy...... :P Sorry sweet Freddie for using your beautiful song lyrics in vain.
Currently starting a Shrek film marathon to cheer me up. Right now it's working as these films are epic in every way. I think Donkey is the greatest film character in history, if he was a human, I would marry him in a second. Awww, I wish. :)

Music always makes me smile. ;)

Check out these amazing musical themed photos I found on Tumblr. Absolutely stunning. Telling you, in my house, I'm going to have stairs like that. As for the lockers, I request that my old school should replace the ugly ones they have with these beautiful things. If not, I'll buy lockers for my house just to look at. Why not? Judge me if you want but they're pretty! :P

How clothes shops now fail in supplying clothes in my opinion.

So I needed a pair of black bootcut jeans for this leavers meal, so after my exam, I ordered my dad to go to New Look. Went in there, all I could see where skinny jeans. I have massive calves (legs), skinny jeans don't work on me that well. I have a couple pairs of skinny jeans that do work from Peacocks but of course that place is now shut. :( The black jeans in New Look were skinny jeans so in the end I got a navy bootcut for £10. And then we went to Tesco's to get yoghurts. First thing we see in Tesco's are pairs of black bootcut jeans. Tesco's. I got two, one's that were stretchy and one's that were just a normal design of jeans, and they were £10 each. And they were the jeans I wanted. New Look has seriously been disappointing me recently for no longer stocking the t-shirts I love with the different designs and now, not having the jeans I like. Plus the quality has gone downhill too. Telling you, I'll probably end up getting all my clothes from supermarkets, I'll save a fortune and the clothes will actually last and suit me. :P

Depressing post No. 534

These past couple of days have been really hard. One reason I cannot share, as it's family related but basically it turned my world upside down. But we all have to stay strong together so, yeah. And I had my Grade 7 Saxophone exam today and of course I was stressed out about it last night. So I'm so tired it's unreal. Apparently I have to come into my school tomorrow to practise for the rock event and then it's the leavers meal which I'm not really looking forward to. But hopefully I'll find out my exam result either tonight or tomorrow and hopefully I've passed so I could have a reason to celebrate. Because right now, I'm not exactly a happy bunny. :(

Wednesday, 20 June 2012

This is why I adore my best friend! :)

I got a letter from my best friend yesterday I've known since nursery and she sent me some really nice goodies. One of them was a two coloured Starburst after I sent her a purple Starburst wrapper that had a dirty innuendo on it (hehe) which I ate in a second, it was good. Should've saved the wrapper but it basically said 'Balance the Starburst on your finger.' I love the pencil she sent me, you know (or should know) that music is my life, so getting a pencil that's the shape of a treble clef is so cute. She made me another friendship bracelet after I accidentally lost the last one, and it's just so pretty. And I also got a Very Berry face mask. I've seen these types of masks and have always wanted to try one but I wasn't sure whether to buy one or not so it was great she sent me one. The smell of it was gorgeous, smelt a lot like berry yoghurt. When I applied it, it made me laugh so much as I looked like Violet Beauregarde when she turned into a blueberry. Ironic as it was a blueberry and cranberry mask... But it did made me feel so relaxed which was handy considering my saxophone exam is fast approaching. So I'm going to the chemist today and buy some more as my exam is tomorrow.... AHHHH! :O

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

I'm now addicted to Barry M Nail Polish. :O

Found these amazing colours at Boots on Saturday, they're all just gorgeous. The first bottle is another Basecoat, Topcoat and Nail Hardener as I spilt half of the current bottle I'm using (klutz) so I bought a spare just incase as it's amazing. I was also needing a gold, silver and bronze nail polish to replace the one's that are soon going to run out. So the silver next to the base coat is the Instant Nail Foil Effects in number 319. Dunno if that means it'll be a different texture when you apply it but oh well. The next one is in Denim, number 325 and it's a really sparkly blue colour, exactly like the colour of sparkly denim jeans, etc. And the last one I'm wearing at this very moment and it's number 324 in Silvery Lilac. It's basically what it says on the tin, very space-like colour but absolutely stunning. :)


I wish for once, the whole world will just shut the fuck up. It's relationships this and relationships that and I am sick to the back teeth of it. Some will only last weeks and won't mean anything. Am I jealous? Of course I am, I want what most people have, people in committed relationships. But I'll never have that as no-one will want to go out with me in a million years. Little quabbles between old couples happen all the time, causing them to break up. Grow a pair of balls and deal with it, and don't involve anyone else in your mess. Fuck sake, I'm in a grumpy mood. :(

Monday, 18 June 2012

I've now found a Doctor Who Tag. YAY!!

When did you start to become a fan of Doctor Who? - Connie, my bessie recommended me to watch the new Doctor Who series in 2005, first with Christopher Eccleston and then with David Tennant. We would then always text each other about the episodes afterwards.
Favourite Doctor? - David Tennant, without a shadow of a doubt. He's gorgeous, really played the character well. He will always be my Doctor, no-one else can compare to him.
Favourite Companion? - Donna Noble. She made gingers look cool and I love how she was just friends with the Doctor and there was no awkwardness between them. She didn't suck up to him either, she was herself and didn't let anyone else take charge of her.
Favourite episode? - 42. Oh my god. First time I saw that episode, I was so scared. When the Doctor got the sun burning in him, I was almost crying with fear. Those 'Burn With Me' characters were creepy. And I also loved how every episode is 45 minutes long, and the time limit actually starts from the first second the episode runs.
Least favourite episode? - Let's Kill Hitler. I mean it had nothing to do with Hitler. It was all about River Song. She just really annoyed me. Those robot things were bizarre too. When I first heard the title of the episode, I thought it would be really good. I was bitterly disappointed.
Least favourite companion? - River Song. I'm sorry but her whole story line just confused me so much, all the attention was on her and she was just really irritating.
Least favourite doctor? - I've stopped watching Doctor Who after Matt Smith joined, well after the end of the second series. He's ok, but he'll never be as good as David Tennant.
If you are give a chance to become a companion, what kind of companion are you? - I would like to think I'd be like Donna but I would probably be like Martha. I would fall in love with the Doctor and he wouldn't feel the same.
Greatest monster you have ever seen in Doctor Who? - The Weeping Angels. Holy jesus, first time I saw Blink, it was bloody scary. The idea of the characters were amazing, were terrifying to watch. They weren't that good on the second episode they were on, but incredible monsters.
Worst monster you have ever seen in Doctor Who? - The Clockwork Droids didn't work for me. The episode they were was great for David's humour and Madame de Pompadour. They weren't that scary for me. Felt as if they've been done before. :(

Harry Potter Tag Motherpuckers!! :O

Favourite book - Deathly Hallows. Honestly couldn't put it down. It was incredible.
Favourite movie - I loved the last films, but I don't know them too well. I have certain HP films that I know of by heart, my favourite is Goblet Of Fire. First time you see Voldemort, the effects for the challenges were amazing and David Tennant played a baddie, what could be better?
Least favourite book - I loved the story but hated the Order of the Phoenix basically because it's a monster size of a book, took 6 weeks to read.
Parts of the books/movies that made you cry - Chamber of Secrets: When Hagrid came back from Azkaban and hugged Harry and everyone clapped (saddo I am).
Half-Blood Prince: When Dumbledore died, saw it in the cinema, wasn't a dry eye in the theatre.
Deathly Hallows Part 1: When Dobby and Hedwig died. :(
Deathly Hallows Part 2: Too many, when Fred died, Snape died and you saw how much he loved Lily, and of course at the very end.
If you could hook up with any HP character who would it be? - Neville Longbottom, especially in the last couple of films, plus he looks nommy in the last film. I wanna be Mrs. Longbottom! :O
Favourite character - Probably Ron, thanks to him, he made gingers look cool. He's a funny character too, so dumb and adorable. :)
What would your Patronus be? - No idea. Probably a butterfly. :D
If you could have the Resurrection Stone, Invisibility Cloak or the Elder Wand which one would you choose? - Definitely the Invisibility Cloak. Imagine if it actually existed. That would be amazing.
What House would you be in? - I would love to say Gryffindor but I'm too much of a wimp to be a Gryffindor. At Pottermore, I'm in Hufflepuff so probably Hufflepuff.
IF you could meet any member of the cast who would it be? - Alan Rickman, he has the most amazing voice ever. And they way he played Snape was sheer perfection.
Have you played any of the video games? - We have the Prisoner of Azkaban for PS2 where you can play team games with the EyeToy camera and they were amazing! We also have the Quidditch game for the PS2 and that's great as well. And I also think that my brother has the Half-Blood Prince for the DS which I've only played once.
IF you were on the Quiddich team which position would you play? - Everyone says Seeker, but I think I would crack under too much pressure. I would love to be a Beater to hit the Bludger at someone I hated. ;)
Were you happy with the ending? - Yeah I was, of course I was in floods of tears as it was over. I think we all knew it was going to be a happy ending, but it was done so well unlike most endings. It also felt surreal that there wasn't a cliffhanger in the last film. :)
How much does Harry Potter mean to you? - A lot. I grew up with this series. When the last film came out on DVD, it was a few months before I turned 18 so it definitely felt like my childhood was over. I saw the first film in the cinema, I saw the last film in the cinema. I've read all the books and have fallen in love with the characters. I'm so sad it's done now, but at least we have Pottermore.

A day of musical-ness..... :P

So yesterday, the EHCB had a concert at my hometown like. The venue was the cathedral, where we had performers from all around the Highlands, Caithness, Gordonston and so on, it was pretty packed. We played the pieces we played at the music festival, better than we did at the actual festival which is a laugh, and the fancy-schmancy people played their dreary programme. Yes they're the best musicians in the Highlands, woopdeedo but c'mon, play something cheery. :O The saxophone quartet played our winning piece again, I honestly think we played it better at Caithness, but apparently our tutor, superwoman organiser thought we played it at our best. It must have been good as someone saw me and told one of the tutors, 'The girl that plays the tenor saxophone is really good.' I got a mention! Three of the girls that go to the band won the Jim Arthur trophy for outstanding contribution, and they deserved it, love them all. And then one of them asked if this was my last concert, and it hit me. The band I've been a part of for two years, the one I went to Germany with, the one where I gained more confidence and amazing friends, the one where we played at primary schools and made little ones smile, the one where I had to walk up the hill with a saxophone on my back and nearly fainted. To be fair, it was the warmest day of the year and it was heavy. But I've had an amazing time at this band, and my confidence has grown a lot over these past couple of years. It was incredible to have the chance to play my saxophone abroad and to meet so many wonderful people, and I wouldn't have missed it for the world. :)

A morning headache. Thanks Jeremy.

God, The Jeremy Kyle Show is a sad excuse of good television, they must get actors to play the roles, to make us believe that all chavs are sad little people in this life. Jeremy Kyle is not a saint either, he's been in trouble with gambling so why is he in charge of solving broken relationships. He makes people to believe that he's the big man, the leader of the pack. The annoying thing is that it's funny and addictive to watch. It's good because it's shit.

Sunday, 17 June 2012

Problems with SAAS. AHHHHHH!!!!

God. SAAS is so annoying for applying for tuition fee loans. I've just applied for fees for Aberdeen College as I received an unconditional offer for their music course. But I also need to apply for Aberdeen University as I've got a conditional offer for there too. And I have to apply before the 30th of June. Now do I use a different account? But I can't even do that as I'll need to use my National Insurance number, etc. God, now I'm starting to panic. And of course, can't phone them till tomorrow, just peachy. If anyone knows how to work SAAS then please let me know, as I'm so confused. :S

WOOO! Major post spammage! :O

So that's most of my Tumblr posts transferred to this blog. That was so much fun. I'm loving Blogger at the mo. Only disadvantage is that, I can't upload music like Tumblr. :O Or use gifs. Maybe that's for the better. If anyone knows how to work Blogger, give me some tips as I haven't got a clue. :P

I have escaped from prison, quite literally. :P

Actually I signed my leavers form yesterday so it’s prison in that sense. I’m now officially an unemployed, 18 year old escaped convict. Which is nice. What made yesterday so surreal was the fact that I thought I would not have been allowed to actually sign the document. As I still have to sit my assessed bronze DOE, we were at first worried about insurance and the like, and I would’ve had to sit it on the 25th/26th June. Now it’s been moved to August and apparently it’s fine now which is all good. So I’ve left the school I’ve been stuck in for the past 6 years and it feels bloody strange. Six years have just zoomed past me and has taken the weight off my feet. In these 6 years, there have been the good times, bad times and the downright shitty ones. I’ve been abroad without parental supervision to Denmark, Paris, Switzerland and Germany. I’ve been a member of the Highland Schools Wind Band, the Highland Youth Big Band and the East Highland Concert Band. I’ve been to the NYJOS Summer School and I’m going again for the second time. I started saxophone in 3rd year and I’m going to be sitting my Grade 7 exam next week (AHHHH!). I’ve made so many friends it’s crazy. I’ve made some enemies. I’ve helped children with disabilities and have absolutely loved it. I’ve sat 6 Highers, 1 Advanced Higher and god knows how many Int 2/Standard Grades. I’ve never had a boyfriend in high school, never been kissed or have ever been fancied by anyone. I fancied one guy for about a year and a half and only got over him as soon as he finished school, since then I’ve never fancied anyone else since, not in that mad way. I lost my nanna 20 minutes before I had to go to school that day, which was practically the worst day of my life. So basically it’s actually been a bloody rollercoaster. Adults say the best years of their life were their school years, right now I’m still not convinced but it’s been one heck of a ride. :P

fun times in a wind band…. :)

Ok, so this actually happened on Monday but I couldn’t be bothered posting it. I know, stupid excuse. So on Monday, the wind band I play in participated in a music festival in the very north of Scotland. It was a lot of fun, even though the bus stank, had only 10 minutes tops for lunch and certain primary people on the bus really pissed me off. Our group had their own sections, including a saxophone quartet which we played our piece two weeks ago and it was average. But when we were waiting behind the curtains for about half an hour as we were the first act in our competition and the adjudicator talked for ages. So we were getting more nervous by the minute. But something must’ve happened as I thought we played the best we’ve ever played the piece, which in the end got us a trophy and the only outstanding/distinction mark of the day. WOOOOO!!! So proud of my saxophone family, it’s really quite funny. Then madness ensumed with me and my friends acting like the weirdos that we’re usually are. But it was a good day, as it saved me from more boredom at home, which was nice. So we’ve got another concert at the cathedral in my town on Sunday which will be exciting and kinda sad as it may be my last concert with the band before heading off to either college or university! Awwww, but I love these guys so much, they’re awesome! LOVE! <3 :)
Ok, I have a bit of an obsession with Irwin Sparkes. He’s an absolute hottie, you gotta agree. Got a hilarious sense of humour, amazing voice, good guitar skills, what more do you want? I wanna be Mrs Irwin Sparkes. Honest truth. :P

I seem to be pissed off with everyone at the moment.

God, no-one ever tells me anything. I’m supposed to figure it out by myself. The day to sign the leavers forms had changed and everyone knew apart from me. I know I can’t sign it till I’ve done my bronze DOE expo, but still it would’ve been nice to know. Obviously I’m not important to some people. It happens all the time, everyone just wants to hide every piece of information away from me. Am I that disgusting? Am I a complete freak that no-one wants to know? I hate this place so much, absolutely hate it. Bet you when I go to Aberdeen, I’ll still hate everyone. God damnit, I’m in such a bad mood. :(

How I got into music, get ready as this will probably be one hell of a lengthly post.

Basically, I have my mum to thank for this. She played the hell out of Bon Jovi and 80’s music since I was a foetus. I grew up listening to all the many genres of the 80’s, even though neither of my parents are musical themselves. I was then told in the primary I had good timing in music and apparently a good musical ear so I was recommended to start woodwind and piano lessons. I’ll talk about piano first, why not. My first piano teacher was adorable, we still talk to this day. She was like a musical auntie, I mean after every lesson, she gave me a hug and a big smile, we were good friends as well as teacher and student. She got me to pass my Grade 5 in emmmm….. 4th year I think. She soon decided not to take any more pupils after Grade 5 so I was heartbroken when I found out I had to get a new teacher. My piano teacher, who I think is great now, at first I was unsure of her. I guess I was so used to the comfort of a easy lesson that when I went to my new teacher, I thought she was really strict. We hardly talked at first, I was a bit upset at first. But then I decided to grow up for once in my life, and found out she’s actually a great person. Even now, as she’s playing the piano accompaniment for my saxophone exam and I’ve had to postpone me sitting my Grade 7 piano exam I don’t know how many times, but she’s always been helpful to me. I think I’ve improved as a more advanced musician now thanks to her. Right now, saxophone. Well at first, it was the recorder for around 5 years. To be honest, it was at first an excuse to skive maths in the primary. I shared lessons with one of my close friends at the time. She then moved on to the clarinet at P7 which made me want to change. I tried the clarinet, couldn’t get a note out of it. Then I tried a flute, managed to play a B and that was it. After growing up listening to 80’s music, I had always dreamed of playing the saxophone, the way it looked and sounded always mesmerized me. The tutor was a bit of a dick though and said I will never have the puff to play another instrument other than the recorder. So I ended up wasting three more years on this piece of crap, playing the same tunes, listening to the same long rants and was basically in a rut. Until one day at the start of 3rd year, he finally decided to bring in a saxophone for me to try. I still remember to this day, the first time I opened a saxophone case and stared at this golden masterpiece, I literally had goosebumps. Little did I know, that this thing was going to change my life so much for the better. My lesson was spent just trying to get notes out of it but I enjoyed it so much I spent my Standard Grade Music lesson sitting outside trying to blow more notes out of the thing. I possibly annoyed the teachers but I didn’t give a shit. I had a saxophone and they didn’t so there. That first saxophone was a council owned one so I was able to get my own saxophone for my birthday which was ironically the same day I sat my Grade 4 piano exam. But I got a distinction so it was all good. Anyway, I’ve had the saxophone since then, my beautiful Parker and it’s been quite a journey. Then I was so lucky to get a tenor saxophone a year later for Christmas. That was when I started going to the music groups and found out that after all that dick of a tutor said, I did have the puff to play a saxophone, two even, Parker and Dixie (tenor). Just shows you can achieve whatever you set your heart to. Now I have a much better tutor for the saxophone, as I’m sitting Grade 7 in two weeks (eeep.) I’ve improved so much in two years since he replaced the arsehole of the old tutor. I’ve made so many new friends through the groups, the NYJOS Summer School and so many other musical groups and I’m eternally grateful to the certain people who have believed in me. As in the song Still Burnin’ by Queen & Paul Rodgers says - “Music lights this flame in me, I won’t let it go and it won’t let me be. Music makes the world go round, I’ve been flyin’ on the wings of the sound, it feels so good from way up here, i’m still a believer, headin’ for the stars.” :P

Random moany post.

Little post tonight at midnight. Hah, poet, didn’t even know it. Bet you by the time I publish this it will be 1 in the morning and those couple of sentences wouldn’t even make much sense. So what’s on my mind tonight? Well for one thing, I’m bloody confused as to what day it is. Apparently it’s Wednesday (just) so I’ll have my saxophone lesson at 9am. But thanks to the jubilee, the band rehearsal which is usually on Mondays is on tonight. I get so confused even when it’s after midnight, so when I say tomorrow, I actually mean in around 8 hours from now. Time is such a confusing thing for everyone to digest. Sorry, it took me 5 minutes to choose a track on my iPod and I ended up with the Black Eyed Peas. But it’s ‘Where Is The Love?’ which is a good track, they used to be really good, now they got too techno for their own good and will whatever his name is deserted them for a crappy talent show. I hate talent shows now, as people look for appearance now rather than the talent. I mean for BGT, how many youth singers have progressed in the competition without an orange tan and liposuction? None, is the answer to that. How did we get so obsessed with appearance in the first place. Sure it’s important, but is it more important than personality? I’m in one of those ranty moods tonight, I do apologise. And my arm hurts leaning on it, owwwie. :(

SOAR Music Night, amazing kids and a revelation.

Do you ever have one of these moments in life, where you realise how shallow you can be? Tonight was one of those times, when I was at SOAR, which my brother attends. They’re a local group for older teenagers and adults with disabilities. Tonight was a music themed night, so I took my saxophone, a keyboard, two guitars, an accordion, two drums (actually my brother’s) and the Singstar game for the PS2 where we have 16 different versions. I played my saxophone to them, I thought it was pretty bad, but just to see the smiles of many of the kids there was amazing to see. These disadvantaged kids probably have never seen a saxophone before, one of them saw all the instruments and want to try out every single one of them. Well the hug I got afterwards from him was adorable. The only annoying thing was that the PS2 console didn’t work, the poor guys were so disappointed and confused when I tried to explain. Dunno if you can get new PS2’s anymore, it’s a shame. When people have asked me what I want to do as a career, I’ve always said to help people with disabilities through music, and tonight has made me want to do it even more. And it has made me realise how lucky I am to have these instruments, to have tuition, to have played at bands and at summer schools compared to these people who are bullied just for being themselves or so dependant on their parents or carers, they’ll never leave home. I’m happy I made them smile tonight, especially through music and I hope to make more people smile in the future. :)
Don’t you think that’s such a beautiful picture? I miss the days where the Doctor and Rose where the perfect couple, and that finale episode where Rose is flying into the void, but is saved and trapped in the parallel world. I still have chills even today watching that episode on DVD, just so emotional. And then in the fourth series where they finally meet one more and run to each other, it was such a beautiful moment, and then of course a bloody Dalek had to ruin it. Maybe for the best, as if they did meet up in the middle, it probably wouldn’t have been suitable for children. I miss my Doctor, he will always be David Tennant, even though the first one I saw was Christopher Eccleston, he was good but David was brilliant. I now wanna watch my Doctor Who DVD’s but I better get changed and ready for three hours of saxophone practise. :P
Anyone else remember this show, especially this game from the show? Back when Ant and Dec where good. Well they still are but they only really do BGT, and that’s crap now, just too repetitive. :D

EHCB (East Highland Concert Band) May Concert

Well the EHCB concert was a bundle of laughs. It was in this nice hall in the middle of nowhere and of course, only family members came to see us. Oh well, that’s not strictly true, Norman Bolton appeared which was bizarre. When I got to the hall, I found out that we were going to play our saxophone quartet where the last time we played it, it was shit. So I was panicking that it was going to be a disaster. We shared the concert with the Inverness Wind Band, and they were at least 10 times better than we were. Plus one of my great friends from the Inverness band who I also met at the music groups, I hadn’t seen since March time, but I must have only seen him for 5 minutes tops so it was really annoying. The hall was small and the balcony thing where we all placed our instruments was crazy. There were about 100 of us to put all of our equipment in a space the size of a janitor’s cupboard. Plus when we went to watch the Inverness band, we had to stand on benches to actually see the group and my feet really hurt. So when it was our turn, we played our first piece which we usually play really well, a March, but our intro was a complete car crash. And then of course, our quartet were next in the programme. Let’s just say the tutor came in too early at one point, our different sections in the piece sounded the same and don’t get me started with my solo, it was iffy. Then came the flute players with their piece, it was just the two of them playing which I thought was really brave, it sounded great until one of them had her 2nd page of music upside down, which left her in stitches. It was really funny, poor girl though, must’ve been embarrassing! :O The brasses piece sounded great and then we played Caprice which has to be the most annoying part of music I have ever seen. I have the same phrase of staccato notes for 3/4’s of the whole thing, so bloody annoying. Then it was Viva la Vida with the Inverness band, which I now hate as I’ve heard it so many times, it’s ridiculous and the music from Chicago which we played at twice the speed we rehearsed, so it was almost another car crash. But overall, I really like these concerts, the more experience you get, the more you see the development in your performance, so maybe one day will come where I’ll be performing somewhere incredible, like Wembley! haha, keep dreaming, Eilidh. Anyway, I’m in a grumpy mood, it’s 11pm, and I’m going to try and see if I can get up tomorrow at a decent time. To practise saxophone for 3 hours. 3 HOURS!!!! Which I seriously need if I have any chance of passing this exam in 3 weeks. 3 WEEKS!!!! I think you can see a pattern developing…… :P

God, another one of these quizzes that I hate. So why am I fucking doing them then? Like I said, idiot.

This is seriously going to get personal, you ready? Oh god, here we go. I must be seriously bored!
 If you were caught cheating, would you fess up? Of course.
Are you craving something? Chocolate….
If you could have one thing right now what would it be? A Red Special…. haha fat chance!
Would you rather have ten kids, or none? Dunno, probably ten.
What do you hear right now? The builders banging and hammering the new house close to us.
Is your bed against more than one of your walls? Well as it’s a loft bed, it’s nearly on another wall so i can climb up the ladder.
What’s on your mind right now? Chocolate. haha. I have no will power.
Are you there for your friends? I always say to them, that I’ll be there. So I hope I am.
 Last person to see you cry? Can’t remember. Been quite a while since I’ve had a good sob.
What do you do when you get nervous? Used to bite my nails, but I haven’t bitten them in a month! BOOYAH! :P
Be honest, do you like people in general? Sure. 
How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids? Dunno, I’ll be surprised if someone wants to spend the rest of their life with me first.
Does anyone completely understand you? Connie is probably the only person that has really understood me. She’s been my friend from the start and we still are even though we live a distance away from each other.
Do you have a reason to smile right now? Dunno, unless saxophone practise gets you wild! haha.
Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? The guys from EHCB, like Genna but I know they will do just fine without me.
Would you be happier if life had a rewind button? Oh god yes.
Do you tell your mum or dad everything? I hardly tell them anything
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? Of course. My nanna died of lung cancer, and smoked for a while, even though she gave up herself and was smoke free for about 10 years, it must have affected her still. It’s just not worth it. 
Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone? Seriously hope not.
This time last year, can you remember who you liked? Nope. Probably because he turned out to be a dick.
Do you think more about the past, present, or future? All of them, mostly the future as I’ll soon be leaving home! Scary.
How many hours of sleep do you get a night?For school it was 8 hours, now I’m on study leave, it’s been 11. haha. :S
Are you easy to get along with? Some say I have, some say I’m too weird. Fuck them.
Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? If I hated someone I wouldn’t have a conversation with her. They’re lovely girls from EHCB, such good banter.
What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? Tea last night. After this, I’m making tea.
What size bed do you have? Double! Oh how I’m going to miss my double. :(
Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? Start the water as it’s always cold at first when you turn it on
Do you like the rain? Sometimes. But in Scotland it always rains.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Probably not, if they are, that’s nice of them.
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? Go on a rollercoaster. Thought I would never do it, never been so scared in my life.
 Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither? Goodie goodie probably. When I’m not.
Who were you last in the car with, besides family? Can’t remember
What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who? Mr. Popper’s Penguins with Struan I think. I don’t really go to the cinema much as the local one is 40 miles away.
Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend? haven’t kissed anyone. that’s how sad I am.
Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? Oh god yes.
Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party? Probably not. I would sit and watch TV with a Ben and Jerry ice cream cause I’m wild. :P
Do you regret a past relationship? Haven’t even had a relationship so I wouldn’t know.
Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? Concert, parties just go completely overboard these days.
Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?People who would never go out with me in a million years? Yep, all the time. :(
Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry? Hope not.
Do you care too much about your appearance? I don’t give a toss really.
Are you a jealous person? I can be.
Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? Nope I haven’t. Local shop is once again 40 miles away. :P
Do you miss anyone? A lot of people.
Does your ex piss you off? Don’t have an ex.
What are you doing tomorrow? Shit all probably.
Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week? I’m the type of person who never has a boyfriend at any time. :P
Is there anyone you want to come see you? Connie.
Have you ever been cheated on? Well seeing as this quiz wants to make me feel the bottom of the deep pits as it keeps reminding me that I’ve never had a boyfriend, then no.
Ever given your all to someone who walked away? Dunno.
Do you like cotton candy? Had it once, can’t remember what it tastes like.
Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with? I never have serious conversations.
Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17? I’m 18. You’re a bit behind the curve there.
Do you have siblings? My younger brother
Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? Don’t think so.
How has the past week been for you? Quite good now SQA exams are done.
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? A couple. Of friends that is, not that they’re a couple together.
What’s on your mind right now? Chocolate and tea…..
What were you doing at midnight last night? Talking to Struan whilst listening to Kelly Clarkson on Spotify
What is your current mood? Not awake yet.
Who was the first person you talked to today? There’s no-one in the house.
Will this week be a good one? Fingers crossed
Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? Not really happy.
Who were you with last night? Was in my room last night.
Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Can’t remember. 
Next time you will kiss someone? Probably never.
Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? Dunno, it’s one of those things that should happen because they like each other, so they should both work at it.
What you doing this weekend? ummm….. probably see my brother parade in the local pipe band again. apart from that I have no idea.
Well now I’m depressed. Where’s the chocolate and tea on the double? :(

About me thing I found. Gonna be the most boring thing you have read in your life. :P

Name: Eilidh
Age: 18
School: Technically I’ve left school, but still enrolled in DA.
Nationality: Scottish
Hobbies: playing saxophone, piano, tv, food. haha

Love Life:
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: neither. :(
Do you like someone?: no-one at the moment, unless you count fangirling over Queen! hehe.
Does anyone like you?: not that I know off, and to be honest i’m not surprised. :P
Have you ever kissed anyone?: nop. :’(
Hugged anyone in the past week?: yep, mainly me amigos from EHCB

Who is your best friend?: Connie, can always rely on her for anything
Where did you meet them?: nursery
Did you lose any friends this year?: Dunno, hope not!
Gain any?: A lot. :D
Meet a special friend?: Over the past two years, a lot of special people.
Did you hang out with any friends in the past week?: sure have, during band rehearsal

New Years Eve:
Did you do anything at midnight?: Was at the street party with friends.
Who did you spend it with?: Good friends, Catriona, Lucie and Ailsa. and my dad and younger brother
Did you have any resolutions?: to make 2012 better than 2011. :D

Valentines Day:
Did you have a Valentine?: No.
Did you send out any cards/chocolates/etc?: No.
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend on this day?: DON’T LIKE THIS QUESTION!!! :O

Did you go on vacation?: If you count NYJOS as being a ‘vacation’
Did you hang out on the beach with friends?: Maybe was with Connie at the beach one day…. can’t remember.
How long was your summer break?: 6 weeks
Did you get a tan?: Nope. The joys of being ginger. :(
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend during the summer?: Of course not. 

Did you go trick or treating?: Hell yeah! haha. no, didn’t even go to the hallowe’en disco i was meant to help ‘organise’ at school
If so, who did you go with?:The Hunchback Of Notre Dame. Sorry i like being sarcastic
Did you dress up?: I’m half zombie anyway so i didn’t have to improvise.
Was it fun?: Had a whale of a time. :P

Who did you spend it with?: Mum, dad, brother and grandad.
Did Santa come to your house?: Sure did. :D
Did you stay up until midnight on Christmas Eve? Probably, the bed there is the most uncomfortable thing in the world! :O

Your Birthday:
Who did you spend it with?: The guys from HSWB, HYBB etc.
What did you do?: Went to Inverness for a rehearsal that lasted an hour, spent the rest of the day doing nothing, had an amazing break where we sat out and ate the birthday cake Bethan made me and people signed my 18 block thing.
What did you get?: This new laptop from the rents, the 40 years of Queen book from the brother, the Live at Wembley DVD/CD set from Connie, just lots of lovely stuff.
When is it?: 24th March. Best day ever!

Have You Ever: (Yes or No):
Kissed someone: Nope. :(
Hugged someone: Yes of course.
Climbed more than 60 feet: How high is 60 feet?
Made a Youtube video: Quite a few now, even ones with my face in them! :O
Lied to a loved one: Yep.
Had a nosebleed: Oh god yes. The worst one was the day after we got back from EHCB Germany trip, had one that lasted for 15 minutes! ewwww.
Gotten airsick: Probably
Been so bored, you just ate food: Everyday in my goddamn life.
Not brushed your teeth for a day: Oh damn I forgot…. -running off to find toothbrush-
Not showered for a day: Yep.
Drank alchohol: Smirnoff Ice is the way to go! haha. Never got properly drunk though.
Smoked: No, and I never will!
Tried drugs: Yet again, I never will!
Had a pet: A few guinea pigs and once had a lot of fish.
Ran a marathon: I would, but I can’t run to save my life.
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend: Didn’t you already ask this question? No I bloody don’t.

5 Do’s
1. Do you play any instruments?: Saxophone, piano, 3 chords on guitar and ukelele, one note on the flute and maybe the spoons as well
2. Do you play any sports?: Used to play golf and go swimming but I’ve stopped it now, and seriously need to go back. :O
3. Do you believe in 2012?: It’s a whole lot of codswallop. We’re still alive right now aren’t we?
4. Do you like cheese?: Not really, I used to loathe it but now I don’t really mind it. :)
5. Do you honestly like Obama?: Sure. :D

I miss Peacocks. :(

I watched a video by punkchyaz, she’s a stunner, if you like beauty related videos (I somehow appear to like them which is bizarre….) check her out, she’s beautiful in everyway. Anyway, she was showing the stuff she bought in the summer, so it was an oldish video and she shopped at Peacocks. They have now closed most of their shops in the UK which is so sad as it was one of my favourite shops, especially for bags. Now pastel colours are popping out here, there and everywhere and it’s not my cup of tea at all, I like blacks, purples, blues etc. I’m a dark person. Mwahhaahhha!

I’m back and free!! For now anyway… :S

So my exams are over, well the SQA exams and I feel as if a whole lot of weight has left my shoulders. We’ve also had some glorious weather these past couple of days in Scotland so I’m going to just chill out with this laptop on both my Tumblr blogs as I haven’t been on both since April. But to start the day with me becoming more and more stressed, the school decided not to tell me that the French exam had switched venues. I was meant to sit it in a church hall thing, but they moved it to the french classroom instead and didn’t bother to let us know. So I had to embarrassingly run across town, as it’s a 15 minute walk to the school building and I had 20 minutes, and of course you have to be there early so they can take register and what have you. Luckily, my mum passed me in her car and took me to the school the rest of the way there, so I eventually made it in time. Just shows how shit my school is for organisation. Right, so it’s 1:05pm so I’m going to make some lunch. Probably will be the packet pasta I’ve had everyday since study leave started. Anyway, if you still have exams, I wish you all the best. :D

The Traveller (a story I wrote ages ago)

Found this today, I wrote it during Intermediate 2 English last year, but never finished it obviously. For me, I thought this was actually pretty good. If you like it too, let me know, and I’ll see if I can finish it. :D
Another day, another airport. The sound of well polished shoes fills the room, the slight movement of dark shades hides the face of the wandering traveller. He walks in time to the beeping of cash registers at the duty-free, blends into his surroundings. He never speaks, he just stares at the gate where his destination lies. No-one gives a hint of thought about him, he never gives a thought about them. He walks through security unscathed with a hint of restriction framing his life. He buys the Times newspaper and the most expensive bottle of wine to remove him of his troubled past. Too many time he left hearts broken and guns pointed at his face, for once he is going to put things right. After all, a father always wants the best for his child.
Of course he never thought his life would be like this. He did used be acknowledged, he did used to be cared for. Then it happened. Imagine losing your family at the age of three, seeing your mother with a bullet through her head, how would you feel? Mind you, you may have forgotten about it or you might’ve misunderstood, got told that your mummy and daddy are resting in heaven, having fun with the angels playing with angels. He didn’t.
A young boy goes on a bus to travel to London, years later he boards his first plane, still trying to forget. Without a home and just enough money to stay on his feet, he carries on like he’s running a marathon. The one night stands he has to try to feel that rare piece of love once again, fall deep into the pits of a dark grave. Trying not to affect anymore lives of the women he sees, the enemies he meets, he still carries on, until a day rose up from the sunset that changed his life forever.
A bright light blinds the pits of his eyes as he slowly rises up from his rest. 7:13am. Wine glasses are smashed on the floor, lipstick marks on the mirror, his shoes stand behind the door. What happened last night? He turns to see a note, written with a hint of Estée Lauder. It reads:
Need to go home. Early day tomorrow. The groom is waiting for me.
After that, he did realise she did say she had a ‘previous engagement’ but he never thought of it in that way. He gets ready to set off once again in his most expensive suit, the shades are waiting on the table to hide his identity. Then, he hears something in the distance, thinking it’s possibly the drilling outside. He doesn’t realise that his phone is calling his name. Picking up the non-broken glass, he turns around in an alarming matter……
Anyone else think this woman is stunning, both in appearance and vocal ability? Shows how crap the show The Voice is when they completely rejected her, and didn’t know her from We Will Rock You. She doesn’t need them, she’s incredible. And I’m glad Brian recognises this and helps to bring out her talent.
It’s at times like these I wish Converse shoes can fit my massive feet. But no. The only shoes I can wear are Skechers. They are so comfortable though so it doesn’t matter. :D

I thought of a list today of people I need to meet. :D

  • Brian May
  • Roger Taylor
  • John Deacon
  • David Bowie
  • Elton John
  • David Tennant
  • Olly Murs
  • James May
  • Richard Hammond
  • Jeremy Clarkson
  • Peter Andre
  • John Barrowman
  • Antony McPartlin
  • Declan Donnelly
  • Catherine Tate
  • Ed Sheeran
  • Rupert Grint
  • The Overtones
  • Jamie Cullum
  • Noel Fielding 
  • Sam Nixon
  • Mark Rhodes
  • Chris Hoy
  • Roger Federer
  • Tom Hanks
  • Matt Le Blanc
  • Jim Carrey
  • Irwin Sparkes

Thinking about my bessie, miss you loads honey. :(

We all have a best friend who we can talk to about everything. Mine has always believed in me, saying that one day I will become a famous and successful musician. I appreciate the thought, but that my dear will never happen. I wouldn’t suit the high life, the celebrity scene and to be honest I don’t want to. I always hide from the spotlight and I can be really secret and private so to have paparazzi follow my every move would really get up my nut..

The tragic loss of amazing artists.

It breaks my heart when artists like Amy Winehouse, Whitney Houston and Michael Jackson get more money when they pass away. Of course it’s a human settlement, fans paying their respects and what have you but no matter how successful you will become, you’ll only be recognised as soon as you’re gone.

The genius that is Charlie Parker

It’s sad when people don’t have a clue who Charlie Parker was. My mum asked me who the hell he was and I said, ‘Mum, he was a genius. The solos he blew from his saxophone were mindblowing.’ If you listen to this playlist, you will understand why.
He is the most beautiful human being on the planet. If I even get the chance to be a 10 miles distance from him, I would still be the luckiest girl in the world. He’s a healer, he’s intelligent, so amazingly talented. There’s just nothing he can’t do. And I hate him for that. He’s the reason why I’ll always be single, cause I want to find my Brian May.
This man is the cutest man alive. <3

Reasons why I’ll always be single

1. I’m incredibly immature for an 18 year old. Hardly drink, never really got drunk. Don’t believe in these marquee things, sure they could be fun, but I never go to them.
2. I always look for perfection. My ideal man would be a musician, who’s kind and thoughtful, handsome of course, brown chocolate eyes, long-ish hair (preferably brown) and has a sense of humour. See how incredibly fussy I am. :P
3. I’m in love with an incredible band called Queen and many people have called my love for this band mental.
4. I’ve never had a boyfriend in the first place. I have asked people out, they always turn me down. That means I have no confidence to ask anyone ever again.
5. I have size 9 feet and I’m a size 18. Got spotty skin and the face of a 12 year old. My curly ginger hair makes me look like a ragdoll.
6. I’m me and I’m never going to change. Ever.

2011 - The best year so far

Note from my Facebook profile.
During this time of year, people leave comments on how shitty it's been and that it's not going to be any different next year. Meanwhile, I've had the best year ever and am so lucky to have experienced all these amazing opportunities and met so many new people so I can't wait to see what happens in the future. I thought it was a good idea to write a note on the amazing events that have happened the past 12 months.

Having only been a part of the EHCB for 8 months, it was quite scary that I would be going to a foreign country with people I'd only known for a short while, and not with friends from school. But this was a brilliant way to skive a week off school! haha. This was the first time I had ever played music abroad and it was quite an eventful trip. From waiting for ages at Edinburgh airport because of their stupid bag allowance guidelines to a thunderstorm at Titisee during the concert of where we provided the best ending for Les Miserables, sheets of music flying around the place and having fits of laughter that is. I also did something I'd never thought I would do, go on the tallest and fourth fastest rollercoaster in Europe. I had never been so scared in my life, I was literally shaking but it was incredible that I was able to do it. Then we were able to enjoy German wine and pretzels and experience the funniest bus journey back home ever!! haha, Alfie the peado. :D Many thanks especially to Wendy Ritchie for organising this and inviting me to be a part of her band and for seeing the good in me. She's Superwoman with all the work she does for the band so I'm honoured to have been a part of this trip. :D

Then I had the amazing experience of the NYJOS Summer School this summer. I was so excited at the first day but yet so nervous about how experienced the other players were and I didn't know much about jazz at the time. But I gained so much confidence in playing jazz music, improvising solos and working with different people. I loved playing at the Jazz Club every night and loved it when people came over and said they enjoyed the performance. It was such an amazing thing to be a part of and I met so many people who were so nice to be with. Many thanks to Andrew and Malcolm for running this whole thing, Richard Ingham for being an inspiration to all saxophonists who want to be as good as him but know you never will, to Rick for being the wacky, funny, awesome tutor ever and to everyone who made the first week of the summer holidays the best ever! If someone asked me to do a saxophone solo two years ago, I would have said NO WAY, but now I'm more confident on playing my badly improvised solos today, all thanks to NYJOS.:D

If that's not all, to top it all off, I was finally accepted into the big band, which I wanted to be in since I first started going to the groups. The rehearsals have been so much fun so far, playing awesome pieces like I'm a Believer, You Got A Friend In Me, and Mood Indigo. We then played at the Aviemore concert, and it was the best ever. Everyone in the group is awesome, as people stole my camera and took sneaky pictures of each other, and as we waited for the gaelic choir to actually start, I had never laughed so much in ages. I'm looking forward now to our March concert, which is going to be amazing, as it will be on the weekend of my 18th birthday! I have always wanted to play in the Big Band at Eden Court, and to do it on my 18th, would be the best thing ever. And I can buy a drink afterwards! Massive thanks to Mr Farmer, for being Mr Farmer, all the guys at Big Band, I love you all, but also to Norman Bolton, who is giving so many young people like me a chance to play music with loads of great people. And thanks to Mr Reynolds and Wind Band, who I've also enjoyed being a part of last year. Just lots of love to everyone at groups!

Even with all these music events that have so many different people involved, there's always some people you thank for everything. To my old piano teacher, Dorothy Menzies, who was an inspiration to me to love playing music. To my new piano teacher, Lydia Jackson, who is a genius on the piano but especially to Mr David Evans, thanks to him, I've managed to get a merit on my first saxophone exam, which was grade 6.

And of course, with all my amigos at DA, they have always made school more bearable, even when there's nabs, prelims and stchick. It's so weird to think how fast and yet how slow 6 years have passed. haha. :D It's going to be weird when we actually finish. The christmas dance was a great success and such fun to help decorate the hall and organise the event, and to hear so many people enjoyed it, it makes you feel proud of everyone who has helped, especially our year for pulling it off.  Even though I can't wait to go to explore other places and meet different people, Dornoch is and always will be my home, I have lived in this little house in the middle of nowhere for nearly 18 years so moving away is going to feel strange.

Even though it's been the best year, it's also been the hardest. With many ups and downs with Highers, exams, both music and school ones, but mainly because of the death of a close relative. My nanna was a caring, loving soul with a big heart who always loved the people she cared for. She always looked after her daughters and her grandchildren, collected so many jackets and towels and was always there to make you laugh. It was a tough couple of weeks with her going to hospital, discovering she had lung cancer and then losing her just a week later, the funeral was beautiful though and even at Fiona and Andy's wedding, she was remembered and loved. Christmas was tough this year as she loved Christmas, with so many decorations and ornaments it was like being at Santa's grotto. It was just us and grandad for dinner, which was bizarre. You always expected to get pyjamas and tops from nanna for christmas as well as those vouchers for the shops. I got both vouchers and a nightie from my Grandad, which made me feel upset on christmas morning. But then I saw my wee cousin open her christmas present later on and she smiled.

2012 is going to be another exciting year, probably the most challenging yet, with hard future decisions to face but I've still got Eden Court with the Big Band, my 18th birthday and another year of the summer school to look forward too as well as more exams to sit, both SQA and ABRSM. No point in making New Year Resolutions, you just take life as it comes. Thank you to everyone who has been a huge part of my life so far, from the young and the old, from the nearest to the furthest. Hope you all have an amazing 2012, and follow your dreams, and stay positive. Unlike me, haha. Saxophone love xxx

Sorry guys, I'm moving from Tumblr to Blogger! :O

You could be out, could be eating food, sleeping or anything but instead you decide to come here, an empty blog where a moody, immature, confused 18 year old musician will rant about many things. I’m sorry in advance for the stuff that may be posted here. I did have a Tumblr blog but it was annoying me when I had to log off between both accounts. So I thought I would transfer to Blogger to create a blog. So it's actually a blog. I may transfer some posts from previously to here. :)